bye bye 2010 hello 2011

yes the bigger me was oct 2009 and the smaller me oct 2010, i cant belive the amount ive changed this year ive lost 7 and a half stone! ive got a job, witch might only be part time, but i adore it :) this year as gone so quick, ive even turned 18! i just cant belive it :) thankyou to everyone whos helped be though this year :) x x x

i really cant keep promises can i!?!

im sorry!, im sorry for this break, and all the others that seem to happen at the moment. i dont mean to do this i promise! well anyway would you like to hear my idea? im gonna be a better blogger. and by that i mean by posting at least once a week. with real pictures! and better reveiws and more than just reveiws. i love makeup and i still want to be part of the online makeup world, i find getting youtube videos up very hard at the moment so i am going to pour myself into my blog! see you soon :) x

its about time i did this

its about time i told you about my past this isn't makeup related by the way. *deep breath* i was 11 when i started secondary school (year 7) i was a puppy fat covered goody two shoes redhead. it took about a week for the Micky taking to start mainly to do with my hair and the fact that i come over rather thick, i have dyslexia witch makes school allot harder for me. roughly two weeks in the bulling from 13 year olds started, i was already struggling with trying to cope with this new school, and losing my old friends as they made new ones and i tried to hang on to my old life (i was only 11!). as it got harder to cope with i started saying i was ill so i didn't have to go to school, the bulling got worse as i lost more friends, and the ones that had made new friends, well the new friends hated me. so as i got picked on and bullied, i pretended to be ill more and more. then to top it all my great gran at the age of 98 died, the first death i ever had to cope with coming at the worse time. i was pulled into the sencos (the person who's deals with children who have learning problems)room lots of times, has they tried to figure out what was going on with me. by July 2004 i was a mess,i don't remember how it all started to come out, but i can remember talking to my mum about and her saying ''we will do anything to help''. i turned 12 in the summer holidays,and then i started DDAT witch is a treatment to help dyslexia etc my nan used the money from my great nan to pay for it (witch i will forever be grateful for). in sept i saw someone who said i had with school phobia (yes its real) i was happy to have a name to what i felt like. for the rest of my school life went like this- year 8-a home tutor and visits to the school. year 9-part time at the school with help by my side at all times year 10-i went to a mini school if you like for people who have been bullied, i was bullied there. year 11- home tutor who blamed it all on my parents, did my gcses thanks to my old primary school. I'm sorry for such a long post, but i felt it was time this was out there so that people going though the same thing knew they are not alone.

hello, remember me?

hi all :) im here!, i know ive been gone for ages but ive had alot going on, so let me catch you up.... my weight loss is now 6 and a half stone in 7 months!!!, well that was the total at the end of sept, i havnt been weighed since then. ive been at my job 6 nearly 7 months now, and i rather like it :) (alot) ive gotten into baing and cooking,witch is fine as long as i dont eat it! its snowing, i cant get to work, and its driving me mad. so there you go all caught up (sort of) i really wanna try and post as often as i can now, so pleas bare with me! thankyou :) x